Later on in the day I went to the YMCA to let off some steam and a sign in the cardio room read "How do you live your life when nobody is watching?" or something similar. I don't know why it was this that spoke to me but I had a big realisation. In some ways I have been living my life in a kind of fog for the last six months. I have had flashes of what I'd call me but they have never lasted long. I've been consumed with worries stemming from our unexpected move and the financial concerns that have ensued. And with Dad passing away, I have neglected some of my interests and things that make me who I am. When I made some brownies for FHE the other week I realized that I hadn't made any in over six months. I have scrapbooked a few pages here and there, but I haven't written a word except on this blog. I've also been very sporadic at the gym. It's not felt the same since everyone who goes seems pretty serious about their fitness goals. I miss the friendships and social aspects that going to the gym in Ohio meant to me.
I am determined to work towards being better. I am going to be more patient with the kids and enjoy their amazing little personalities. I am going to spend time on my writing and on other creative projects. It's not easy but I'm going to try very hard to banish the worries and live life to the full. I love my Dad so I am going to try to lift the weight from off my chest.
Here are some pictures of the kids.
Today we took the kids to see Coraline in 3D. I have to say it was visually fantastic. The kids were enthralled. But I wish they had 3D specs that were more appropriate for little children's faces. Spencer and Nathan had a hard time keeping them on and they were uncomfortable. They looked cute in them however!